Its not the most painful fact that you don't have him, but the fact that he don't want to be with u

Ya, It is always like that. I always fall in love with the people who don't love me back. And I keep wishing that he would love me. Funny thing is he said I won't go away from you whatever happens, but he not only left me but also gone for another person.
He said that if he didn't have me he won't ever fall in love again. But he had already fallen in love and have forgotten me too.

I only said I would try to love u, plz wait till I do. And I tried till I succeed, but there's no one to receive it. And now that I have fallen in love I can't leave u or fall in love again.

What a ironic my life is. I often wonder he was ever sincere in his words. He told me so many things, but never acted on those words. I was always taken back to readily give promises, but I feel like I have done more than he even ask me.

I received another message from him. He had got through his exam. I am happy for him. But also sad that knowing the fact he doesn't miss me like the way I miss him. If he does things would be much more different. First he wouldn't have left. Second that he wouldn't be that much unhappy with me. Each time I think of how unhappy he was with me, I feel like dagger piecing through my heart oozing blood. Everyday it seems like my wounds will never gonna heal.

When I received his message I wanted to cry and ask him y r u happy without me? Y can't I be happy without u? Y is my life is such a mess without u and y ur life go so well without me? Y I can't get u out of my mind even for a one second when u never remember me? I wanted to call him tell him that come back to me, there is no life for me without u. I can't think straight, I can't breath freely and my nights are so dark without u.

I'll give whatever u want, the things u always wanted coz without u, I don't have any value of myself. Plz come back. I don't want anything other than ur love and without ur love thr is no point of having the whole world. I would fight with the whole world if only I could have you, if u would love me, I would bea any insult, just come back to me. End this pain that have become part of me.

But I finally typed "congratulations, gud for u" I did what I had to do. I don't have the right to say anything of what I actually felt, but sent him a polite reply, that reveals non of my true feelings. He is no longer mine to share my thoughts. He is some one elses.

When I remember that he is happy with someone else, and I am still alone in this world, when I feel that he is happy even without me, and I'm in pain becoz he is not with me my heart ache with a pain that is inexpressible through the words. So at that time I sat on some place and stare in to the horizon wishing that pain would some day disappear.

I hope that one day this pain would disappear and till that day I would bear it in my heart. No one would no, and there is no point that even the whole world getting to know about it, becoz the one whom I want to be know my pain and love will not be thr for me, even though how much hurt I am and how much I love him.